My Administration

Isn't it amazing that I can do anything I want with my life? Absolutely anything I feel like doing with it? I can turn it into the best possible human existence, or I can dwindle its importance to resemble an ant. (With all due respect to ants, but we humans passed that state long ago.)

Isn't it obvious that I know what helps and what hurts me? Yet why do I still choose to repeat some of the latter? Why don't I use more of my time in those thoughts, feelings, actions and other expressions to enhance myself to the max each day? Why do I have so much of my energy go into things that are not taking me anywhere? And thank God I do include activities in my busy weeks that help me evolve... but that isn't (or shouldn't) be an excuse to settle for less than my potential has to offer.

It is, to a point, frustrating that it should be so spiderwebby to get out of these senseless cycles. And, again, I do recognize that I am way better off than before, that I deal with my imperfections with greater amounts of grace and self love, but oh dear. I've such a long way to go.

But the point is that I'm on the path, right? That I am more conscious now to detect when I'm thinking, feeling or acting in ways that are not pro becoming a better person. And when I catch myself in the midst, I can simply replace the thought, feeling or action with its positive equivalent, fully conscious that it's an ongoing process... and with lots & lots of patience.