Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Crash Splash

si no has visto crash................. k esperas?
tengo esta cancion pegada en el caco desde ke lei los lyrics.
y ese oscar performance... beautiful... moving... inspiring.
got me definitely swimming...

and now you're out there spinning
and now you're out there swimming
in the deep
in the deep

feeling much big love today... in the deep :)
had the awesomest conversation about men and love in gral.
with 2 wonderful women- ages reserved. jajajaja.
but we've all had enough experiences to... u'll see in a few months.

love begins within. in the deep of each. love can be without. no need to feed off of another. no one must complete u, complementing and completing r opposite things. so many other yummy things... love mustn't be requited, because it is about giving, not receiving... and u can still be loving towards those who aren't loving, and know that everyone's got their own issues to solve and their own reasons to be. and just because u love someone doesn't mean u have to be with them. and just because u want to be with them doesn't mean u can't be happy without. and just because u r with them it doesn't meant that life is fixed, and just because u r not with them it doesn't mean that life is broken. there is so much enchantment in knowing how to be alone... so much wonder in self love, that u can definitely share with a lover, but that u will not try to squeeze out of the other. and if u r with another, there r so much healthier ways to love than what's out there... there's so much more to b responsible about... u cannot make anyone happy and no one can make u happy... there r some things that u have to learn to do for urself. u can add or subtract to each other's joy as much as u allow each other to, but no one can make decisions for me and i cannot make decisions for u. that's why i cannot make u feel like i will solve all ur problems and will lovingly fill all that emptiness in u, because it would be a loveless lie. why make u believe something that i cannot do? why not encourage u to really fill that gap the only way it can be filled? inside ur own self...

i would love u to love u more... that is all... :)

i would really like u to be genuinely happy... but i cannot do that for u. not if i would really choose to love u. i can shower meteors of love, of the love i have to give, but i cannot inject anything red pilled to u... even if it has been felt like this before... the injected type of love is like a drug high... u will eventually crash with the lows... the lasting kind is planted, not reaped. planted within.

but it's ok... we're all learning different things. we're all standing on different points of life and will view things depending...

we will each love as best we know how... i think we all have a bit of wanting to play savior in the game of love...

but how can you possibly save another when you are forgetting yourself?

5 comments:

Marnely Rodriguez-Murray said...

love urself before loving another...a very good lesson, a lesson we should all learn. and the part about no one being able to complete you, but yes complement you. be full of love, so you can share all of it, with no need to yearn to be completed be someone else. :D

Chris Fleites said...

"Hey Mr Grump Gills
You know what you gotta do when life gets you down?
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming swimming swimming
What do we do we swim, swim, swim
OH HO HO How I love to swim
When you WAAAAAANNTTT to swim you want to swim"-Dori, Finding Nemo

Chelle said...

:D :D :D

I love that movie!!! and I LOVE DORY!!! "A boat? I've seen a boat... It went by not too long ago!"

ellen se la comio.

just keep swimming... :D

Anonymous said...

Mich, GREAT post...when words come from the heart its all beautiful.

Vomiting everything!!! EXCEPTIONAL

Chelle said...

jajajajja

yes! i threw it all up! :D