i don't trust myself with loving you. - john mayer
so it's like that. i decide what i want first. what i really value and would like. and then i receive it. until i do, i can't wait to receive a clear something of what i prefer, if i haven't decided what i prefer first. i mean, first of all, if i'm undecided, i'm likely to receive a little fuzzy. and even if i did come across something great, my waivering would cloud me... it would probably just pass me by... what am i creating?
and i don't want ambivalence no more. - nelly furtado