yes, that's more like it

when i give myself more attention, proper attention, everything changes. things make more sense, i waste less time, i feel more alive and i end up doing things that produce useful results. i feel more focused and understand where i am heading much better. things become clearer, days become longer and fuller, and at the end of each i feel accomplished rather than disappointed.

i like this. it's not easy, it sure is easier to just live by the second and not think about or plan anything. sure. but only in the short run...

and in the long run i don't want to feel like a failure. i don't want to look back and realize i wasted myself. i don't want to drown in lament because i didn't do all i could do with this life. i... want more. :D